kuen's birthday

Dear Sumire,

So long no update. Haha.. Anyway, this is just some pictures I took during nenek's birthday. Running out of things to write. No idea. So this post, gambar saja lah!

Signing off,
jin

publication design makes me go dizzy

Dear Sumire,

Here's a magazine assignment I made for Publication Design. It's tiring when you'd to come up with a 16 page magazine design is less than 2 days (thanks to my missing laptop). I presented it today, and my lecturer seems satisfied. Hopefully I didn't read her expressions wrongly. I'm really tired with so much work to do. There's more to be done, and I'm afraid I cannot make it in time. :-(

Anyway, here it is. I embedded the a pdf file here, so you guys can view it in fullscreen. It might be a little slow, due to the large file size. Comments are appreciated. Thank you. :-P

KLife

Continue to do the rest of my assignment lo =(

jin

very yellow ah my head right now!

Dear Yellow Sumire,

My head is filled u with the word 'Yellow' at the moment. Not the yellow that you're thinking. Not the hamsap yellow. Don't get me all wrong now. ;-P

It's just this old song from a few years ago. I'd heard this song before when it was popular, but I never knew the name of the song. It was only a few weeks ago my gurl told me that it was called Yellow.

But really, even if I like the song, and no matter how many times I go through with the lyrics, I never get to understand the 'yellow' part of it. Tak paham. If you understand, then please explain it to me. Hahaha...

So here it is, Coldplay's Yellow:

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you

It's a very nice song. It would be even nicer if I truly understand the meaning of the lyrics. Alright, it's time for me to get back to work! I'm not even supposed to blog now. Time constraint!

Dragging my ass back to work,
jin

blogging kat mamak

Dear Sumire,

Today I want to blog in rojak language. Malas lah wanna think about grammar and this and that and this and that, and this and that. I blur oledi, so dun blame me if u think you dun understand what the hell on earth I’m talking about. LOLX

I’m supposed to be working my ass off at this moment, but then here I go, blogging kat mamak, or what they call bistro here in shah alam. I feel like if I can, I want to just buat muker tak kisah about the presentation for Brand Identity tomorrow, but I can’t. so that’s exactly the reason why I’m here at mamak with my two group members, supposingly doing our respective task, but I dunno la. We’re just here while people around here are shouting “GOAL! YAY! Ahh!” while watching the soccer match on tv. Dunno plak whu lawan whu. Tak kisah. Not a bola fan anyway.

Supposingly working la on assignments. But sempat take ss picture. LOLX.

SS. LOLX. you can tell how tired we are by the bengkak under our eyes.
But we can always smile for the camera.

Ekin yang RAJIN.

Tunisha yang SERIOUS.

Kak Ai and some unknown random guy.
She sat just hind me. She mengacau saja actually.

Kk. Back to work.
Before they start to plan a homicide sebab i tak buat kerja.

jin

i really hate you

Dear Sumire,

There’s no other song to represent my feelings right now, except for this:

"Don't Stay"



Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need YOU to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need YOU to go

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What YOU were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all Your faithlessness with YOU
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted YOU too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone

I don’t need YOU anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of YOU wasting me away
I don’t need YOU anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of YOU wasting me away

With no apologies

DON'T STAY!

Yes! I hate YOU! YOU’re wasting all my time away! YOU make my life miserable! Aku benci KAMU! Hate YOU! Damn YOU!

Yes YOU! ASSIGNMENTS!

Frustrated with too many thing to do,

too busy

Dear Sumire,

I wish I could post an entry sooner, but I'm really very busy at the moment. Assignment workloads are pulling the life out of me. Pray for me, so that I can pull through this obstacle. I'm beginning to cough again, which is irritating because I'm coughing so hard the pain goes all the way to my head.

That's all for now. I wish I could write more, but I'm running out of time. I'll post a lengthy post once i got the chance. Once all these works and burden is relieved off my shoulder.

*cough cough*

Yours truly,

irrationally furious

Dear Sumire,

I’d failed you. I told you that I’ll only blog about happy stuffs, but hell, nothing is as easy as it seem.

God damn it, I started my day with a big smile on my face. I was grinning when I thought, “Gosh! After so many Mondays, I finally get to wake up on time. At least today I won’t be late.” I guess that smile didn’t last. The next thing I know, I was showered with bad news, and so on so forth.

I’m so tired of double standards. I know, I might have some double standards myself too, but I hate all of them just the same. You do something, I do the same thing, and I’m the one to blame? I felt really fucked up. Forgive my vulgarity, but it’s the only word to describe what I felt at the moment. Tired of all the dramas and acting in the house. Hey ladies and gentleman, open up your eyes, wipe your tears and look around you. Don’t you realize everyone is wearing a fucking mask on their face? Look into the mirror and you’ll see one on your own as well.

The next thing I knew, I was scheming to piss people off. I guess I did. I even thought I’d fun. When I looked into the mirror, I saw a wide grin hanging on my face, but I didn’t feel happy at all. I realize all I did was just making me unhappy. I wasn’t happy at all. Maybe it’s because it all went unnaturally. Maybe, I shouldn't scheme anything at all.

I’m writing this to end the awkward frustrating feeling right here. If anyone involved is reading this at all; you have my words. I’m not doing anything on purpose just to fuck with you guys anymore. But I know I’m not Mr Nice Guy. So I assume you guys will come to me in a full fledged fight soon.

I remember my old buddy Koo once told me during a fight that I fuck people up to their limits naturally. I guess he was right. I brought doom upon others just by existing. So if you guys cannot stand my existence, well I guess you really should do something about it. It’s your problem, not mine. According to my friend, it’s just my nature.

Pissed off,
Jin

frust!

Dear Sumire,

I pekchek ah! So many things to make me pekchek this week! Super pekchek ah!
*FYI, ‘pekchek’ is frust in Hokkien. ;-P

Let’s see if I can list out what made me pekchek this week.

Car
It’s making weird sound. *tat-tat-tat-tat* Like some wire is loose or something. It’s frustrating! And my car jerks as it makes that weird sound. I only get to send it to the mechanic next week!

Computer
That’s even more frustrating. This laptop is giving me slow response, and it’s really slow at times. I know Acer is a good companion. He always accompany no matter I’m happy or sad. But don’t lah until he follow my mood pulak?! I dah cukup blue buat assignment, dia nak bagi blue screen plak?

Food
I guess it’s purely luck, but this week’s food is either bad taste or coming late,or serving me the wrong order,or can’t find anywhere to dine because it’s too late. And the list goes on and on and on... And on... And on...

This green curry noodles is a combo from Strawberry Cafe in Taipan.
It's slow, and it sucks.


Maybe that’s why sometimes I rather eat cup noodles.
Just kidding. ;-P

Trying to cool down,
Jin :-)

assignments

Dear Sumire,

I wonder why I have never ending assignments. The lecturers seem to enjoy this. One of them lecturers even asks us to make her a magazine. In like a week or so? God, save us all. Most of us have hardly started anything even though the deadline is almost there. And there’re more written assignments undone!

I better stop blogging and start being hardworking now..

Tired.
Jin.

lonesomE time

Last month my mum and sister accompanied me almost all the time. When they’re not, Nana would’ve bugged me. Mr. Pua would’ve called and make use of his salesperson’s tone to make fun of me. For one full month, I was never truly alone.

I got back to Shah Alam with Eunice two days ago, and I intended my little sister to have fun on her short stay here. I drove her around here and there. I hope she’d be happy with her stay with me.
The truth is, I’d like her to release herself from the hook of stress.

While she’s around time moved at the speed of light, and I’m almost always talking and chatting away.
But when she left, suddenly time seems to crawl lazily. I’m left unoccupied.

Suddenly, there’s too much time until I drift away in my own sea of thoughts.
I distract myself with the Twilight Saga, and I tried to complete the CD I wanted to present to Nana on her birthday.

Now alone at Shah Alam, suddenly, collecting my results (I’d a precognition that it’ll turn out bad) on Saturday seems too long and too far away. Until Saturday, I don’t really have much to do.
In fact, I have NOTHING to do.

I hate being lonely like this.
And as much as I hate to admit this, I’m feeling emotional.
I hate this feeling equally as well.

sUrrOgatEs

Before I came back from Shah Alam, I had the opportunity to hang out and catch ‘Surrogates’ with Hui Lin. The funny thing about us is that we’d been SMS-ing a lot, but we’d never really talked much face to face. I really had a great time borak kosong with her. All our topics revolve around our assignments and movie critics.

After movie sempat go dinner some more. I was the one driving, but she’s the one bawa jalan. I wonder when only I’ll know my way around Klang Valley? I’m always doing the wrong turn here and there. Hilarious.

But what i wanted to share here is ‘Surrogates’.
This movie is set in a near future, where humans are actually interacting using humanoid machines that they control with much liberty on a control chair from their respective home. All aspect of life is done using these machines they call ‘Surrogates’.

I wonder why the Malaysia version of the poster is so damn ugly.
This version looks neat and nice.

The movie actually had a pretty nice, neat and easy to understand introduction. The technology used in Surrogates was invented in order to help those who are physically impaired. People who’d lost their limbs in accidents or any other means are given artificial machine limbs in which they can control at ease. Slowly, the technology expanded so much that full humanoid surrogates are created. It’s then commercialized and the government allows its use in daily social life. This action is said to be the first step to generate the crime-free society.

Bruce Willis stars in this futuristic science fiction as Tom Greer. He is a police detective that conducts his investigation using his own surrogate. It was until his machine was destroyed, he is forced to investigate the bizarre case of a few people who actually died, when their surrogates are ‘killed’.

I would recommend this movie. Not 5 star la. Maybe 3 star the best. The special effects are really cool, but the plot, it is somehow too predictable. Still, it’s an enjoyable movie.
You might like it. ;-)

faKe

Previously on geNeceLL:
I was made to delete this post because some one said it's offensive.
But wad the heck? Re-posting it anyway. Since many already read it elsewhere, why not here kan?

I cannot understand how the mechanisms of some people’s brain work sometimes. How can they be so extremely fake? I always said I hated backstabbers. I hate the jab from the back. But this is totally different from what I’ve seen so far. So totally different.

This individual can laugh. This individual can smile. This individual knows how to get angry, and she definitely knows how to condemn. If you’d wronged her, then get ready for her judgment. She’ll ignore, she’ll condemn you behind your back, and deny it in front you with almost genuine anger. She hates to be questioned, no matter how questionable her actions might be. This individual sees faults in others. But one thing I’m sure, she’d never seen any error in herself.

The nice thing about confronting her would be the almost always imperfect excuses she gave. What she said never made any sense to me.
“I did not say that before.”
“I forgot.”

I do not believe in her words. I do not believe in the warmth she gave to people around her. Having listened to her cruel words bout some other people around me is okay. But seeing her being so nice to these people she spat on when she’d problems made me sick. She can happily laugh and smile to these people she condemn not so long ago.

She’d treated me nice before. But the more I think about it makes me wonder if her warmth is genuine at all. All she need was company. All she need was someone to talk to, no matter who it is. No matter how much she actually hates you. All she need is to own the world. She needs to make the world bow to her command. She wants the world to know how she felt. But she never bothers to care what the world’s feeling. A self centered individual.

Is her warmth and care earlier genuine after all? No. It’s all fake.

I am positive that she’ll spit on these people again. The very same people she spat on earlier and talked to nicely after. Soon, as soon as she got pissed off for her own lame reason. But it won’t be a problem after all. People always give in to her when she comes back with excitement in her voice and smile on her face. I lost trust in her smile. In fact, her excitement and smiles now make me sick.

iT's a nEw day

Saturday morning. Everyone left for their early morning classes. I’m left sitting alone here in front of my laptop. I don’t like the feeling of being alone, but today might be a good chance to just sit down and relax a little.

Life had been spinning 360 since the last few weeks. There’re moments of confusion, surprise, fear, happiness, despair and bitterness. But it’s all over now, I want to start anew. I want to get back on track.

I’ll just keep this post short. Need to pack. Need to head back to Melaka!!


:-D

maLas

Boring nyer!!!!
Actually aku mashih ader banyak lagi kerja yang perlu dibuat. Tapi aku duduk lepak jer main Bejeweled kat Facebook. Giler la. Patut aku duduk jer kerjakan project yang ade kat tangan, tapi aku malas. Mood untuk buat assignment atau project tak exist.

Karang plak aku bleh lepak blogging. Macam tak kenal masa. Dah la deadline dah dekat sume. Tak kenal maut.

Ahhhh!!!
Lantak la. Mandi dulu.
Assignment ngan project… Tengok ah camne nanti.

haPpy bDay chiEy fOng!

The birthday girl is the one sitting in the middle, in yellow t-shirt. She called me a 'height discriminator', and it's only fair that I call her 'Pendek'. She'd just turned 22 years OLD yesterday, so I just wanna wish her Slamat Hari Jadi Pendek!

I hope all your birthday wishes comes true!

My woRk iS fiNaLLy doNe

My assignments, my presentations, my projects, all are submitted. All accomplished. Now that everything is finally done, I’m felt relieved!

While I was rushing against time to finish my works, AJ got ‘diu’ me a bit. She said I never gave any credits to those who help me in doing my tasks. I cannot credit them in my written assignments, so I credit them here in my blog k?

AJ helped me a lot in my written assignments. She did my PR report for me, and many other written assignments, while I am busy doing my designs. Can say every piece of my written assignment also she’s involved. Especially my forum’s presentation script, and my PR report. That two pieces of writing are purely her work. I’m just giving her the guidelines and taddaaaaa... The work is done! Besides that, I also had her criticize my artwork. She’d been very helpful. All my works she said not nice. So, everything has to be redesign again. Hahaha... But it’s good lah. I feel that there’re improvements to the designs. Thanks a lot!!

So, actually, there’re only 2 subjects that got me so busy for the past weeks. Digital 3D Design, and Digital Illustrations. Well, 3D is a headache for me. I’m relatively weak in modeling, and the process sucks. Our lecturer Mr. Shahruddin assigned us with only four 3D models to make, but still we cannot submit the work in time.

The 4 items he assigned us to complete are:

(i) Apple

(ii) Hammer

(iii) Hand

(iv) 3D character

And what I submitted is definitely not so similar with what he wants. Hahahaha... I gave him:

A cherry?

A definitely distorted hammer

Kayu papan-style-hand

And...I dunno what this is. You tell me?

As for Digital Illustration, I am assigned to design a concert ticket. And for final project, I have to redesign a children’s storybook.

The ticket is a total reboot after AJ said the original design sucks badly. But I can’t show you the original design because it sucks so bad, I didn’t even bother to complete it.

This is how it looks like after the reboot. It’s disappointing because the figures in front are not clear on print. Ah... I forgot to label the front and the back. The one with black surface is the front. The white one with loads of logos and the map is the back.

When I say I’m to redesign a children’s story book, I mean I’d to improve the design of the story book. I don’t really know what to do. So, I choose to extract the text as it is, and re-illustrate the whole thing. You really should read the children storybook. I never thought that I would read such a piece of rubbish. The illustration is really terrible, and the story itself is too damn dumb. Here’s a some sample of the book:

Ugly indescribable.

Well, SzeMun help me a lot. She helped me in sketching a cuter version of chickens. Like this one:

Cute? Ahaha... I attached the book I redesigned below. Enjoy the ‘storyline’. It might be the worse or best children storybook you’ll ever read. It depends!

Now, that my works are all done, the nightmare had just begun. My final exam is here. OMG, save me.

P/S: My exam is over. i tot i published this earlier, but I did not realize it was in my draft. Damn. =.=

i sMasHeD mY caR oN cHriStmAs eVe

What the fuck is wrong with my luck these days? I’m so fucking unlucky, and I feel like blowing my head off with an AK47 (if I had one).

This morning, I was driving outta the college area when I suddenly hit some 1 ft high concrete with my front bumper. The screeching sound is like so damn loud and I can actually feel my heart beating in my throat. I was so shocked. When I get off my car to check, all i can see is the whole front bumper already fell off. What a retard I am.

I drove to the nearest auto repair shop (which is not a body shop), and they say I’d to change the whole bumper. The bumper brackets are all broken. According to the mechanic, my bumper is already out of shape. There’s nothing much to be done except to change a whole new bumper. So I placed my order.

Then I thought that I should have called my dad, asked his opinion of what to do. He answered my phone call and briefly said:

"Don’t fix. Bring the bumper back to Melaka."

Eventually, I go back to the shop and cancelled my order. Haiz, and back to Melaka I did. I cruised my all my way back (more than 130km) with my front bumper in my car, instead of having it on the front. I have no choice since the NGV tank is occupying the rear storage.

Yea, that's my front bumper. wtf..

Took a picture of it when I reach Melaka. This scene really render me mood-less.

What a Christmas.. I guess this is my 'best' Christmas present this year. Merry Christmas to all you dudes out there.

Drive safely. Do not kill your car alright?

a pArKinG sLoT foR dEaD iNdiaN

Kak Ain was admitted into hospital yesterday. As a friend, I visited her at Klang (nonsense, takkan I visit her as doctor plak). It wasn’t easy to find that Klang Hospital. Tersesat. And after a series of unfortunate events, including doing a few U-turns in Klang Town, finally I arrived at the hospital. When I saw her, then only I know that she was admitted because her blood pressure was too low. But since she can smile and ask for diet coke, I guess she'll be fine soon. And of course, I hope and pray that she’ll get well soon!

Kak Ain as smilling as we change the content of the dripper with Diet Coke.

But in this entry, I would like to share what my friends and I saw at the hospital: a very special signboard indeed: a parking slot reserved for dead indians.

I wonder whether they reserved parking slots for dead chinese from government sector as well?

fLooD

Shah Alam is once again doomed by rainy season. It’s raining consistently at least once a day every noon-to-evening period, everyday. The downpour is seriously wild, and it could flood my college area just within minutes. When I first reach Shah Alam, my seniors told me that our college is frequently flooded and it’s a normal thing to happen. I’d been here for a while now, like a year or so, and yet this is the first time I witness the water rising.

Here are some pictures I took using Aj’s phone at my college area after the rain had stopped and the water level had decreased.

-_-||| Our bikes are flooded. AJ's bike is also parked around here, however it's not visible.

I dunno why, but everybody seems to be happy and smiles all the way,
even when they have to take off their shoe and walk barefooted on the tar road surface.

The temporary beach.

Things gets back to normal after one hour or so..

While I thought it’s stupid because a university cannot have good water drainage system, my friend Ain said,

“University banjir cuma kita saja yang ada!”

Well, i guess that’s the reason why everybody is smiling, even when an incident like this one occurs. They actually felt proud.

And then yesterday, the rain came pouring like hell again. And this time it’s accompanied by some strong wind that makes your day worse, if you are outdoor picnicking. I was lucky I was home when the downpour occur. There is no warning for rain of this sort. One minute the sun is trying to kill you; well next, you’re killed by the thousands of gallons of water crushing down from the cloud above your head which appears out of nowhere.

I took the oppurtnity to snap some picture again.

The visibility is very low when the downpour occur.

This small bird took a pit stop at my balcony to dry its feathers.

This is how the river look like after the rain had stopped.

This picture was just taken this morning before I start typing this piece of entry.
Can you see the difference?

I just hope it rain less. Don't want all this banjir kilat lah. Make people pekchek only. want go out have lunch or dinner also cannot. Here flood there flood. This is really so annoying.