thanks

Dear Sumire,

I used to think young, wild and free is the way to live. But ever since I started working, I realized life is no longer that wild and free. Even the young part is sipping away, absorbed into my work. What's not to sip away? 9 hours of work, every single day!

I'm no longer socializing in many ways. I try to distance myself away from people. Mainly because sometimes I feel like we're in a totally different channel. Well, of course we can always fake a smile, try to think that everyone likes you and blend in.

But I'm a little lazy to do just that. Trying to blend in can be a nuisance, and it's absolutely tiring. You have to watch your words, try not to hurt others, and keep all that you want to say right in your heart. Lips sealed. That's tiring. You can't call those friends. We call those people acquaintance. Some call these people their company, but for me, not really.

I rather stick to a few I can really call friends. Say all I want, and even if I hurt them, they know my intentions. I said all sort of y things for a reason. Hurting someone else definitely couldn't be one of it.

So, to those I call friends, thanks for sticking around.
Even with my shitty comments, hurtful words, and my heavy babbling.

I truly cherish y'all.

Truthfully yours,
Jin

the accident

Dear Sumire,

Hello to you, readers. I’m gonna rant and rave over a few things, because the day before yesterday was just another hard and unlucky day for me. But that very day, I learnt a few lesson in life, be patient and to be able to move on.

It started off with a bad morning. While I was working on the key arts of a new movie poster, my laptop continuously gave me nasty problems. And I was so frustrated with the whole morning. My Adobe’s Photoshop keeps freezing from time to time and hangs in the midway of an important task. Then I thought, “Why don't I save my progress every now and then?” Then things got worse, the software hangs when I save the file. And I have to redo the design over again, from scratch. The whole situation repeats itself, numerous times.

I thought to myself, “Things won’t get anywhere worst than this.”

And I was dead wrong. In the evening, around 4.45p.m, I rammed into the side of a Kia Spectra. The driver was fine, but obviously, his car is not. Looking at the damages of his car and mine, I know I wouldn't be able to pay for any of the damages. So I suggested that we lodge a police report, and claim the damages from the insurance company. Mr. Nara is a very nice man. He talked to me calmly, and agreed to my suggestions.

All the while during the time in police station, I kept apologizing to Mr. Nara and his daughter. I wished I had been more careful on the road and avoid all these troublesome problems. I called my dad to tell him about the mess I’d just did, and he said to me in a disappointed voice, “It’s an accident. No one ask for it. Just be careful next time.”

My crashed headlight.

He was right. No point crying over spilled milk. Just do the best you can to handle the situation.

When I was at the police station, I saw many cars in a very much wrecked form; some looked like a crumbled piece of paper. Looking at those, I can’t imagine if the driver or his passengers survived the crash. It made me realize how lucky I was. The sight of those cars reminds me of my own car when I survived a major crash with my dad, with the car flipping downhill at Pagoh more than a year ago. Back then I promised myself to live my life properly, fully.

The car i saw at the Police Station.

Now I wonder, “What happened to that promise I made to myself?”

The truth is, I totally forgot about it.

The truth is we all forgot. We forgot what is important in life. We’re not living the fullest out of our short time on the earthly plane. If you’re catching up with the news in Facebook, there’s this guy who made a countdown of 45 minutes before committing suicide. That guy made me sick. He threw away his valuable time of his life out the window just because he think he can’t live without some girl who ditch him. And guess what? A sick bunch of people even called him hero, and dedicate a Facebook fanpage for him, like he’s some kind of a martyr. The next thing we know, maybe we’ll celebrate robbers like Robin Hood in the future.

If you will, I suggest you guys read this book by Mitch Albom titled ‘Tuesdays with Morrie’. It’s a good book to reflect on life, while facing death as an everyday routine. It’s definitely not a book about throwing your life into the wastebin, but about squeezing every single drop of life left in your soul, even when your body is giving up on life. The book talk about how we forgot about the most important things in life, and got all tangled up with other peoples’ dream. Dream that our society and culture had set for us; big cars, big houses, big paycheck, Gucci bags, skinny jeans, high heels and the list goes on and on. He concluded that these worldly belongings are not things they would make us happy. Maybe for a moment. This kind of happiness never lasted too long. Say, if you’re going to die today, I bet you’d be thinking the same as Morrie; the paycheck, the heels, the Gucci, they just don’t matter anymore.

I don’t know how I could drag on from one thing to another. I hope you’re not bored away by my rants. I just want to pass Morrie’s message on.

“Love always win”
“Love your friends and family”
“Forgive others, forgive yourself”

jin

blogging kat mamak

Dear Sumire,

Today I want to blog in rojak language. Malas lah wanna think about grammar and this and that and this and that, and this and that. I blur oledi, so dun blame me if u think you dun understand what the hell on earth I’m talking about. LOLX

I’m supposed to be working my ass off at this moment, but then here I go, blogging kat mamak, or what they call bistro here in shah alam. I feel like if I can, I want to just buat muker tak kisah about the presentation for Brand Identity tomorrow, but I can’t. so that’s exactly the reason why I’m here at mamak with my two group members, supposingly doing our respective task, but I dunno la. We’re just here while people around here are shouting “GOAL! YAY! Ahh!” while watching the soccer match on tv. Dunno plak whu lawan whu. Tak kisah. Not a bola fan anyway.

Supposingly working la on assignments. But sempat take ss picture. LOLX.

SS. LOLX. you can tell how tired we are by the bengkak under our eyes.
But we can always smile for the camera.

Ekin yang RAJIN.

Tunisha yang SERIOUS.

Kak Ai and some unknown random guy.
She sat just hind me. She mengacau saja actually.

Kk. Back to work.
Before they start to plan a homicide sebab i tak buat kerja.

jin

grr..eat tigger year!

Dear Sumire,

Happy Chinese New Year!!

Shot this fireworks on the CNY's eve!

Paiseh lah~ Wanted to blog about Chinese New Year and a few more random stuffs earlier, but I couldn’t find the time. I’d a lot more work on my table, but I ignored them all because I’m feeling terribly lazy. CNY totally drains me out. What makes it even more terrible is the fact that I got sick right after I came back to Shah Alam.

Well, you can say I achieved absolutely nothing during CNY. That exclude a few more new conflicts in my hands (but I won’t call them achievements). I was called a jerk that could never change. Well, she did not say it right to my face, but somehow I know she was throwing those words at me. I still wonder what I did that makes her all fired up, but I guess I will never know. Life is always that ironic. She was the one that pushed my heart to the point that I wanted myself to change into a better person. She was the one that said she’d faith that I could change. But I guess she was just saying that for fun. But I want to change nonetheless. No matter I’ve got her support or not. I believe I could and I’d faith I would. I believe that God would give me a chance if I would try. No matter if it's too late or not.

Bla bla bla! Talk bout this stuffs really make me 'sou heng' ah! Let's get back to my CNY! On the 1st day of CNY, I spent some quality time with family and friends, and I’m grateful for that. I enjoyed the great moments with them, and I was really happy. Back then, I used to think of CNY mainly only of Ang Pows and junk foods. But now, I feel quite differently of CNY. The company of our close ones worth much more than the Ang Pows we accepted!

My family!

Mak dan ayah tersayang.

Super seldom take picture with my handsome dad. So I thought MUST upload kan?
Very red ryte? Huat aahhh!

Ini plak my sister! All these pictures are shot on the 1st day of CNY.

2nd day of CNY, my family follows the traditions of Hokkien to go back my mummy’s ‘Niang Jia’ at Sg Rambai. And as usual, my grandparents would some sort of open house on that day. Makan lah~ Apa lagi?

Makan makan, jangan tak makan. =D

After makan makan, they start gambling! This year, I again refrain from gambling. It had been a few years since I last gambled. Well, no lose no pain lah kan? Since I’m not gambling, I got lots of free time at my grandma’s house, which is not quite a good thing. I took lots of pictures, got tired and fell asleep at my grandma’s living room. I guess many people would’ve seen me drooling away. Here's some of the pictures i took:

Lai ah lai ah! Let's HUAT arrhh!

Ini 2 gua mia leng lui cousins.

My sister and my always crying cousin. It's a miracle he let her hug him like that!

But he's definitely cute when he's not crying.

Family picture. Front-liners are filled with New Year Spirit don't you think?
ONG ah~

Well, for me CNY’s 2nd and 3rd day had always belongs to my mummy’s family. These reunions usually will have lots of chatter, laughter, food, cards and money involved. Hahaha.. But I guess that’s what CNY is all about la kan? It’s all about re-connecting family bonds.

Like I said, my 3rd Day of CNY was spent with family members as well. There's nothing much to talk about, except the fact that Pua called suddenly and asked me to go visiting with him. After asking my parents for permission and called Pua back to see if he can fetch me up from Taman Seri Bayan or not, all the efforts goes down the drain. Hahaha.. Not anyone’s fault but it’s just too inconvenient. Anyway, here’s some picture taken on the third night!

Arrival of the VIPs.

Homemade food is served!

The 'Masak-masak Crew'!

Halau lalat crew!

Makan!

Our grandma!

Carlsberg anyone?

My cute da jie, and her cute lao gong.

On the 4th day, Pua and I went to Koo's house. It'd been so long since a step into his house, but the house was still the same. The furniture arrangement, the huge coffee table, it's all remain unchanged. It feels familiarly the same. It all feels awkwardly comfortable to me. Anyway, being able to talk to Koo again after so long makes me feel light again. The once heavy burden in my heart was finally cast away. I wonder somehow, if our friendship could be like his unchanging house, and be the same again? I doubt so, but I hope so. Well, no pictures was taken that day. Hahaha.. We also did visit Zhi Wei's house. There we saling kutuk-mengutuk and focus on psycho-ing Pua to join other field of profession. Sell handphone, for example. LOL

On the 5th day, Tuang Cheong organized a class gathering for 6 Arts 2 at Amigo. It was a fun experience as some faces had been missing from my life for such a long amount of time. We chat and discussed about the time we'd spent together, and the time we'd not. It was disappointing though because I thought I would be able to see Ruey, Poh Chuan, and Wee Yong there. I had fun, although my neck was giving me a hell of pain.

My soba comes with a raw bird egg. =.=

Thanks for the night! 6A2 rockz!

On the 6th, I went out for 'Cousin's Night Out' with Nick, Jocelyn, Eunice and Jan. Due to Jan's inability to contact everyone fast enough, Jasmine and Andrew had to pass on that night's outing. We watch Little Big Soldier which is not that bad. While waiting for our movie to start, we had our supper at Old Town on the top floor of Dataran Pahlawan. Unexpectedly, Pua came with Sab to snap some pictures for us. How nice of them eh?

Actually Pua wanted me to accompany him for lim-teh session with Sab, but then I already promised my cousins to accompany them. So Pua decided to tag along the supper session with my cousins. Well, it's a good thing he came! He brought his semi-pro camera with him and snap some pictures for all of us!

My siblings!
(Photo Courtesy of MoguPua Photography)

Pua, you're the best ah!
(Photo Courtesy of MoguPua Photography)

That's all for now lah~ I'm feeling drowsy again. This post had been drag a few days already, because of my stupid flu medicine. Type halfway, feel dizzy. Type some more, feel drowsy. If i continue typing some more, I'm sure to fall asleep. Kay lah... In this tigger year, jin wishes all of you a grrr..eat year ahead!!

Yours truly,